Life, Love, Long Hair, Weeping and Gnashing of Teeth, and other mysteries

All this and more, from a semi-Serbian, slightly sane, former editor for physicians and surgeons, who is the mother of seven kids.


Thursday 18 October 2018

Intentionally Incomplete

"Take you a glass of water

Make it against the law.

See how good the water tastes
When you can't have any at all"

-Creedence Clearwater Revival, "Bootleg"

. . . . .

How universal is it to desire that which you do not possess?

Is it in every human heart to admire beauty, overtly or covertly, regardless of how much one already has?

Is it an empty space of longing that was allowed with a purpose, ready to be fulfilled in a dimension where jealousy, pain, and offense of all kinds are nonexistent, and peace, joy, and love are rampant?

Is desire a prerequisite to fulfillment that will only come when we are in perfected bodies, not decaying, not breaking, able to handle the weight of holding everything we could want, sinless, selfless, and furthermore having the capacity to enjoy it to the fullest?

Meanwhile, we live in a state of not fully living, and we continue to die.

Hovering...

Too much gravity to fly, yet not enough gravity to be held down.

Swimming in the lusts of our flesh.

 Sometimes caving in and regretting, sometimes walking away and regretting, and sometimes feeling temporarily satisfied.

We admire, desire, and crave.

Those eyes, that hair, those arms, that mind, that car, that truck, those shoes, the sun, the heat, houses, land, gadgets, tools, travel, companionship, intimacy...

We steal, we kill, we destroy.

It's not just me.

I don't want it to be!

So universal.

We thirst.

And we continue to thirst.

Then, sometimes, when we get what we want, we find that it wasn't as perfect as it seemed.

Temporary ecstasy amidst temporary pain, not able to endure the strain.

Almost living, always slowly dying.

Always

-  intentionally, really -

incomplete...